As I wrote in my opening post, I want to be able to get more personal with you guys, and share things that are special to me. That’s where we’re going today. I get asked all the time what my tattoos say, and what they mean. Seriously, all.the.time. So I thought I’d share them with you guys, tell you why I got them, and what they mean to me. I realize that tattoos aren’t for everyone, and that’s okay. I am fortunate enough to work in an industry that allows for artistic expression on the body, so I count myself lucky to be able to express myself this way. Don’t get me wrong, I get a lot of naysayers in my life that tell me “tattoos don’t look good on girls” or “you know that’s going to be there forever, right?” etc, etc, etc… *Rolls eyes in exasperation* Just know that with or without tattoos, you’re beautiful, and the people that love you will come to terms with it eventually. If not, in the famous words of my friend Nadia, BYEEIIII. Ok I’ll get off my soap box now, let’s get into this!
My First Tattoo
I got my first tattoo when I was 20 years old, at a time when my entire life was changing tremendously. I was fresh out of a two and half year disaster of a relationship, having to make all new friends, and finally letting out my inner party princess. I was studying the Portuguese language and loving it. I chose the word Saudade because there is no other word like it, it has such a powerful meaning. The definition I most identify with is, “the recollection of feelings, experiences, places or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again.” It’s not exactly a happy word, but not exactly sad either. It’s about missing something/someone but knowing it will never come back or be the same. Read more about it here. At the time, it was letting myself move on, yet still cherish the memories that I kept. Now, the tattoo is an expression of how I feel when I think about certain times of my life or certain people. It’s sad that it’s over, but the memories are still happy.
In Memory of My Best Friend
This tattoo is so special to me, for so many reasons, yet it is the hardest one for me to talk about. When I was 14 I lost one of my best friends in the whole world, Krista. We were more than best friends, we were closer to sisters. I was devastated, and sometimes it feels like I’ll never move on from the loss. This tattoo was my way of remembering her, and cherishing our friendship, however short it may have been cut. The quote reminds me that although she may be physically gone, her spirit and memory lives on in those who knew and loved her. In that way, she’ll never truly be gone, but will live on indefinitely. She was an exceptionally wonderful person, with a heart of gold. She was carefree, a little bit wild, and fiercely protective of her friends. With the tattoo, I always carry her memory with me and am constantly reminded of the amazing friendship we shared.
Heart Disease Awareness
I was born with a congenital heart defect known as Tetraulogy of Fallot. In more basic terms, there were four random defects with my heart, mainly centering around my missing pulmonary valve. I’ve had a closed heart surgery, two open heart surgeries, several heart catheterizations, and countless tests throughout my life. The two-toned heart shaped ribbon represents Heart Disease Awareness. My mom and I both have the symbol, although hers is on her wrist. When most people see this tattoo, they’re like, “Oh that’s a cute heart tattoo.” I then have to explain the real meaning behind it. For me, this tattoo is a reminder of where I’ve been, and to stay strong, because I am literally capable of anything.
Philosophies of Life
I love this Tolkien quote, found in The Fellowship of the Ring. Though of course the poem has meaning pertaining to the LOTR books’ plot lines, it spoke to me on a deeper level. For me, this quote is a reminder that first impressions are not always true, and things are not always what they seem. Things that are valuable are not always the shiny new toy you think they may be. Those who seem to be “wanderers” are often in a place of their own, searching for their own truth, but never lost. Wisdom and age results in strength and resilience. And no matter how ‘frosty’ life can get, deep roots (whether it be family, friends, etc) will always be there. It is definitely a statement tattoo, but one I proudly wear.
People Let Me Tell Ya ‘Bout My Best Frand
This tattoo is about the size of a thimble, and took about a minute to complete, but it has a world of meaning. My best friend Emily and I got these matching tattoos to commemorate our friendship. We’re super annoying like that. The symbol stands for “connection” or “to connect.” I’ve known Emily since high school, but it took years for us to actually become close friends. About two years ago we bonded over a shared experience and buffalo chicken dip. We realized that we connected on a soul-deep level, and that we are basically the same person. Knowing I have her gets me through the hard & stressful times in my life, and the tattoo reminds me how lucky I am to have such a cool cat to call mah best.
Hey guys, I know that was a lot and pretty personal, so go you if you stuck it out until the end! I love my tattoos, and I love getting tattoos, so who’s to say there won’t be more to come? Let me know in the comments below if you have/want any tattoos, and what they are! I love hearing other people’s stories. If you have any questions about the process or experience of getting tattoos, let me know! As always, thanks so much for reading, & stay golden